Momentarily

I've been reading in John a lot lately, been yesterday I came across something I thought was really amazing. It was John 8:32 it reads " and you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free". I was really thinking about this verse, and how many different interpretations may come about from it. I thought about it for a while, which I do not understand why because it is very straight forward. After a while of thinking about it, it came across to me that even when we lie, we are set free. But this freedom it provides is momentary. And in 1st Thessalonians 1:5 it says "for our gospel did not come to you in word only, but also in power and in the Holy Spirit and with full conviction". When we feel this freedom, after a time maybe short maybe long, you will get convicted. It happens to me a lot, my mom will ask me something and just because I am to lazy to form an i just answer yes.

Even with little stupid things like blurted out answers, God still convicts us. Lie is wrong but i think the intention in our heart is very powerful, almost as powerfully if not more then the lie. Its the creation of a deceptive thought. Just doing that hurts me the most. in proverbs is says "A lying tongue hates those it crushes, And a flattering mouth works ruin." wow. If we lie, it's showing "hatred" towards those we are lying too.

I don't know, just somethin' to think about.

Impatient

I have randomly become very impatient, its bad. And most of the things I am struggling to be patient with are not worldly. Is it because time has become real to me? But when I am doing things I love, like missions trips Time momentarily goes into extinction. But when I arrive home I realize how much I've done in two weeks. What about the other 351 days in a year?

wait.



It may sound wrong but life some times is a waste of time. We live in this world that wastes time constantly. Time is becoming in a way a burden to me. Time is becoming finite as contrasted with infinite duration. We have a limited time here but an infinite time in heaven. The Bible says that "there is a time there for every purpose and every work".

I have been planning on going on a mission trip this year, and I decided I wanted to go to Mexico with Tara Weber, but God has different plans. The world told me I wouldn't have enough money for the other trips but God told me different. Last night I realized I had been deciding to much of my life on my own. I realized I haven't been completely surrendering everything "........If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing."

I prayed, and did not hear what i wanted to, God wants me to go to Costa Rica so,

I will go.

"Their voice goes out into all the earth, their words to the ends of the world"

Time

I have an extremely limited time to blog but these been a lot on my heart through out the week. So If you were expecting one great thing, sorry because I'm going to be all over the place....

1) Alexis, Sara, and I attended a conference over the past week end. It first when there was a couple singing about...um i actually failed in understanding what they were singing about, I was really disappointed. I was like " I cant believe i payed 40 dollars for this. Then out came the speaker and I honestly was not expecting very much. But I remembered the verse in Job were it says ""....... listened to me expectantly, waiting in silence for my counsel". And I realized I am so expectant an everyone to tell me how to do things, but truly I am made to wait in silence expecting God to talk to me and also God to use others to speak to me. I was a lot happier to be there when God really used to man to speak to the audiences heart. I believe it does not take a good speaker to preach a good message, but more so a Man or Women that is a good listener.

2) Church on Sunday night was awesome. If your on the worship team your most likely getting angry already but thank all of you, it was great. I went up for prayer and Pastor had a revelation for me and........ I don't, it was really awesome.

I have a lot more to say but I have to go, I'll write some more later.

Honduras

I am kinda feeling disappointed about the whole thing. But I know God will turn it into good. I talked to a few people today about the trip and it might be cancelled, I will still go but I just would not be able to share those moments with a large amount of the people I care about. Most likely with my little brother and Lex =[. So i wanted to look into things like population and that sort of thing. I was reading that the poplulation is well over 7 million. Then a little thing poped up on the bottom of the screen that said "Get Honduras forecast". I clicked on it. only because it told me to. Im now Im angry I did because it said today was a high of 95 degrees!!!!!!!!! ugh i want to go sooo bad. The lowest it averages is in november at 74 degrees.